Wednesday, December 30, 2009

To Live

With much thought about what my intentions will be for 2010 I have decided its time to live, instead of survive. Possibly even thrive if I choose to be open and allow God to work in my life. I want to go places that didn't seem conceivable a year ago. I want to play more and create more. I want to have deeper relationships with those who are dear to me. I want to learn to love myself as much as I love my family members. To treat myself with same care and tenderness I give them. I want to stop caring what other people think of me and live well because it feels good.

I don't really have an idea how to do all these things but I suppose that's part of the journey. To take one day at time, see what shows up and say yes. Through it all I will continue to forgive myself as I would forgive another. I will choose to be grateful for the gifts of insights that I do have. I will choose to love instead of bicker.

What are your intentions for 2010?

Many Blessing,


Monday, December 28, 2009

"Letting Go" Part 2

As new year's eve is approaching I 've started to reflect on my intention for 2009 which was "Letting Go". I had no idea how the words Letting Go would manifest itself in my life or what it was too look like. As a side note, I should mentioned that I was sitting in a new eve's service at our church when my intention showed itself. I know I am not the same person I was a year ago, telling the same story of the past. I now look to my future with awe and wonder about where it is I would like to go. I have forgiven many from my story line including myself, which I think was the biggest break through in Letting Go. I realized how I was harboring so many negative feelings, they had taken permanent residents in my psyche which left no room for anything else to manifest itself.

Over the Christmas holiday there where some very wise words spoken to my husband and I from our elders at the time. "It all depends on the lifestyle that you want, nothing else matters."
A part of my brain perked up and said yeah I agree with that, even though I was clearly not conscious of what I had been telling myself. For example the white picket fence and the beautiful new house are a must for the newly married couple. I am always amazed at what takes place when we choose to let go of an idea that is really not our truth so something better can grow roots.

As there are only a few days left in 2009 what is it you would like to leave behind to melt away with the year?